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Weekend [Jul. 17th, 2007|10:08 am]
[Current Location |home]
[Feelin' |hopefulhopeful]

Well this weekend went by in a blink of an eye, but it was a pretty decent weekend regardless. It's true time flies when you're having fun.

First of all on Friday Chris and I headed out pretty late to his friend's birthday get together in the city, I thought it was just drinking in the dude's house till we come to find out he lived but a few blocks from the bars on Rush and Division. So we headed to Finn McCool's which is the bar with the stripper poles on the second floor. We got in and after a drink or two headed upstairs to said poles only to find out girls who should not be on stripper poles were the only ones occupying them. I got fairly hammered as the night progressed and sometime during the evening an extremely drunk meat head came up to me spewing out lines of how exotic looking I was and how beautiful he thought I was and how he thought I was really cool and that we should dance. I declined said thanks but told him I was with that guy and pointed to Chris. He did not take that as a no and kept on, pulling me to the dance floor while I firmly sat on the bar stool, I called Chris over and by that time I walked away and had him straighten it out. I was a bit spooked dude was creepy had drunk frat guy written all over him. the two's conversation lasted a bit too long and I could tell something was up because the guy just kept on, Chris went to the security guard and told him about the guy harassing us. which relieved me because if an actual fight broke out it would have been bad news. After that mood killer we hung around for a little bit longer then headed home. We got home safe so it was good.

Since we had gone to bed at 5 we got up at 10 on Saturday, went to get a soup and sandwich at Panera in hopes that it would safely coat our stomachs and get rid of hang overs, then after we ate we both got the itis and passed out again at 3 and got up again at 6 and repeated our trip to Panera with the addition of a Jamba juice stop. We just relaxed Saturday which is what we needed after the night before.

Sunday we headed to the west side pretty early meaning about noon. He had to help his dad at home so I went to see License to Wed with Oso. Wow it was bad, poor John Krasinski, why why why? It was kinda cool because it had like three other office cast members in it but it was no where near as funny as the show. Oh and it was set in Chicago. Later that evening Chris and I went to the park by his house to swing on the swings, it was fun and we took some pretty funny pictures of us goofing around the park. Dork Out 2007 it was awesome.

Monday I went to get my car checked out, they gave me a Mitsubishi Lancer for a rental, it's lame. We went to see Harry Potter OOTP and I was disappointed, I thought it was too long yet still left out some great parts from the book. Plus they're all looking waaaaay too old to be 14.

So that was basically all it. I had a call from the past the other day and it was a good talk. I don't regret the past but I greatly enjoy looking towards the future...
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life [Jun. 12th, 2007|06:27 am]
[Feelin' |anxiousanxious]

California was a bust, the only perk was seeing the rugrats before they reach the age of nine, because we all know that's when all the shit hits the fan.
I woke up today at 4:30 in the am. I don't know why really, I've been getting little anxiety attacks out of nowhere, they've been really lame, I just think about things too much and I get jolted awake with worry. I'm frankly sick of it. I feel like my life is just like sand falling through my fingertips. Utterly hopeless at times. I don't know, maybe it's hormones or something.
I'm glad to be back home, Chicago is just home and whenever I leave it and come back it's always somehow better then when I left it. When it starts being worse is when I'll move away. I wonder when that will be.
Changes are coming, inevitable. I wonder exactly what role I play in it all. I'd love to just disappear most of the time only to reappear on random moments/episodes where something fun happens. In other words I really just wanna live for the highlights of life.
Mario Party + Bacardi is a highlight which is half sad. Puking is not a highlight. My dad is 60 today, that's a bit insane. 60 is so old, I would prefer not to live that long, and I don't think I have to worry about that, which is actually kinda sad.
I would like to go back to sleep, I have at least another hour till I have to be awake but I just end up laying there in bed completely aware that I'm not sleeping. I saw two Nick Cage movies yesterday, The Weatherman and Lord of War, I had never seen Lord of War. I have a new found respect for Mr. Cage. Although I do believe Ghostrider was a bad choice as movie roles go.
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Jolted By Reality [May. 9th, 2007|03:51 am]
[Feelin' |anxiousanxious]

I woke up tonight because of a mild anxiety attack. I have a lot of prolems that I've been keeping to myself lately so I figured writing it all down may help me out a bit.

I run out of health insurance in May due to some bad judgement calls by my mom, so after May if I get ill I'm pretty much screwed, so death really feels like it's nipping at my heels come June. I don't want to alarm people, heck I only really am half worried about it but let's just say a girl who is just done with 6 months of chemotherapy should be insured for merely logical reasons.

Second, school is my biggest silent guilt factor ever. I have 4 incomplete classes that I have yet to take care of, I just wrote an e-mail to my advisor telling her I think I should be good to go for the summer. Irregardless of that though, once I've done those four classes my mom refused to help me out with the remaining semester I have to graduate. I'd be financially screwed. So alas yet another thorn in my side.

So with all of this shitty stuff going on I've been silently blue, how could I be happy when in the long term my future ain't looking so bright. Short term things have been decent, I just went to Springfield with two of my best buddies, we had a great time at Park's last show. Chris and I have been getting closer despite the fact that we both kinda know these will be our last months together, he plans to move after graduation eventually. Chemo ends in May and I'm stoked about that. I can't wait to see my hair grow back, it's been a pretty bad experience with it all, I always felt bad for Chris because I pretty much got really sick only 2 months into our relationship so he really has never seen me too well.

So that's all, all I have to update for now.

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Content Equals Silence [May. 2nd, 2007|02:15 pm]
[Feelin' |boredbored]

I don't write much in here when being in relationships which is pretty understandable I suppose. When I do write in here religiously I usually don't have much to say which is actually the case at this point in time. Although irrelevant things to say are the whole basis of Internet blogs anyways, I mean you look back on these things and pretty much just go, " Oh that's what was going on at said point and time, how interesting or boring depending on the content of said blog.

So yea things have been good, good to the point that I forget to write in here or check Myspace every waking second, good to the point where I'm creative every now and then, content with writing a story or movie idea or dreaming up a plot line. It's weird times I tell ya.
I go to California the end of this month, other then the cousins who are 7 and 9 I really couldn't care too much, change of scenery, change of weather, maybe do something interesting there, who knows? I know one California resident may perhaps be mad at me from the previous visit, which I really am sorry for.
I'm wearing pearl earrings and wearing pajamas, I don't know how I feel about that. I made my own mixed CD's from the BUZZ BALLADS play list omitting some lame "ballads" that should never have been on there. Early 2000 alternarock was addictive. I know at least 3 people who will blast me for that last comment. So bring it on I say. Bring it.

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Irish For a Day [Mar. 19th, 2007|03:30 pm]
[Feelin' |sillysilly]

I had the most Irish St. Patty's day ever this past Saturday.
First of all I actually wore green.
Then got a Shamrock shake at McDonalds.
Then got a Green Leprechaun hat, green carnations, and a Leprechaun balloon, then watched the movie Leprechaun, you know the campy one that Jennifer Aniston got her big break from.
Oh then I had some Irish stew.
I'm the most Asian Irish biotch this side of the island LOL.
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Like Hair, It Grows [Mar. 14th, 2007|07:06 am]
[Feelin' |shockedshocked]

I went out with Monica last night and it was good times, we were over due for a good diner night where we could just talk. I went home not knowing what to expect, I figured Chris wouldn't be home because he had said he made some impromptu plans with friends. To my surprise he was home playing video games and wearing a baseball cap over his newly buzz cut head. I was shocked, it's kinda like having a new dude around your house, I half woke up this morning freaked out because I was half asleep and I didn't half recognize him, it was odd.
Last night we also hung out on the roof top because it was so nice out, roof tops are also a good place to sit and talk.
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Wide a Fucking Wake [Feb. 28th, 2007|06:19 am]
[Feelin' |awakeawake]

I woke up about an hour ago. I suppose because I actually have shit to do today and my mind started racing thinking and worrying about it all at 5 friggin am.
I have yet to film another movie today, in the city, I play a psychiatrist whose patient is obsessed with her. I'm thinking Anger Management? That movie sucked too.
I read this script once so I figured I'd go over it on the train.
Sometimes I wish I was able to be on camera when I actually had hair, but I suppose this whole acting chemo patient thing could totally be used as a gimmick. Eh who knows?
I wonder if I should even try to go back to sleep...
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So Anywho [Feb. 26th, 2007|06:06 pm]
I acted in my first movie yesterday, it was bad, I'm not cut out for this whole "acting" thing, I like to be behind the scenes more, perhaps a writer or something.
I came up with a movie idea too, it's pretty damn good or at least the idea behind it all is, the concept, it's a good creative concept, and if you wanna know what it is you should ask me because I'm not going to just post it for the world to see, afterall it is a work in progress.
My parents are in Florida for the next week, the fact that it's snowing outside right now makes me very jealous of them.
I should turn on a light in here.
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Where Have I Been? [Jan. 8th, 2007|10:06 am]
[Feelin' |thirstythirsty]

I'm really hoping to break this reoccurring theme of getting admitted into the hospital on the first week of the month, it's getting old. I'm out though, again. The water seems to be staying off as well, been peeing up a storm, which is a good but annoying thing.

My life has magically reverted back to happier times as it seems, times where mundane grocery trips become a fun little outing, times where MadLibs are one of the most funnest things you can do in bed. It's been great, it really has been, I'm just guarded because I know shit happens and everything can all just change in a flash. I'm still enjoying it all now though. Sweetness is plentiful around here and you don't hear me complaining but for any of you who actually know me, I'm not really an expert in how to be that sweet mushy cutesy type girlfriend but I am trying to stick to my new years resolution of being a nicer one.

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Round Two FIGHT [Dec. 20th, 2006|05:43 pm]
[Feelin' |nauseatednauseated]

I had my 2nd round of chemo yesterday. I'm totally beat today, I woke up nauseated, tired, dry mouthed, and just not feeling like my chipper self. I was out of it and still am, nothing I eat tastes right which I was told was a side effect. Being extremely cold all the time is also a side effect that I got, it's been great fun lately.

Water has come back slowly but surely, I had fun with the old me but the present me is back, damn water, damn all the water!

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